The F Word

All this week, I’ve been feeling like a complete failure and I have no idea why.

I’m having trouble focusing on writing any content, other then just pouring my heart out right now.

I feel lost…the wedding consumed everyday life this year and now it’s all done… I don’t know what to do.

I’m really struggling to write about our wedding day, don’t get me wrong it was a lovely day, but there were a few issues and it’s still fresh in my mind.

I put my all into our wedding… I’d love to work in the wedding industry one day but I don’t know where to begin.

I really miss having a paid job, I’d give anything to be able to work, even from home. I miss having that responsibility.

I’m in a really low place right now and I don’t know what to do.

29 thoughts on “The F Word

  1. I hope you are feeling a bit better about things now, Ami. It is only natural to feel rather low and lost after such a big event like a wedding. You have done really well in planning it all and keeping busy while writing your blog and helping others through your volunteering so try not to beat yourself up about it. Just try to relax for a bit and recharge your batteries. As everyone has already said, this low bit will pass and you are still writing at the moment. Take it easy and you will be fine. xx

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  2. Sending you lots of love ❀️ it’s normal to go through a low period after an event that consumes your life so much is over – it will eventually pass, I promise. Be kind to yourself and take a little break if you need to. My DMs are always open if you need to talk x

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  3. Often after a high and happy time, we experience a low and sad time. Remember Elijah and how depressed he got after defeating the prophets of Baal (with God, of course!). God told him to eat and to sleep. So please take care of you and don’t let your mind focus on negatives. Get some rest, eat right, listen to good music, and pray and read your Bible. I remember the advice of a writer: When you don’t feel like writing…write! Praying for you, Ami!

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  4. πŸ™‚ Well, for starters, find a safe way of relaxing. It sounds as though you are experiencing a high level of stress.

    Now, I am sure that you can find something to write about your wedding day (After all, you must have some thoughts on that memorable event of yours).

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    1. Hi Ami,

      It sounds like you may need a break to figure out what you want to do next. If I’m understanding you correctly, then you planned it all yourself and you’ve been working really hard all year, I’d hardly call that a failure. It takes a lot of dedication, time, and energy to plan an event like that. Or, maybe it would help to just write what’s on your heart (like you just did) and then come back to your wedding when you are feeling more ready and comfortable. Try not to be so hard on yourself okay? ^_^ Thank you for sharing, I really enjoy reading your blog πŸ™‚

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      1. Thank you, I appreciate your kindness πŸ’š Ewan admits he could not have planned what i did, even though it was stressful at times, i really enjoyed the planning process.

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  5. Hi. I am sorry to hear you’re struggling a bit currently but I can relate. I too have found myself adrift at times after some major event in my life concluded, even successfully like a wedding. But I think you are, perhaps despite it feeling that way, still writing important things by even writing about how you are struggling to write (which does not show, by the way). Anyway, be kind to yourself. The ship will right itself soon, I am confident.

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    1. Thank you Jeff…I’ve been thinking about the advice to give you, regarding our conversation a while ago on Twitter and it’s just occured to me that I’ve not done any of it myself…I’ve never been one to take my own advice.

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  6. I think you are doing it. Just keep writing. Even if you do not publish what you write for now I think it will help you to organize your thoughts and feelings, it does me!

    Letting people know how you feel is also important, and you are doing that now.

    I believe it is very common after weddings and other long-planned for and anticipated events to have that feeling like someone has let the air out of your tires. You will get through it and learn from it! You are so resilient.

    Take some time for selfcare, feel what you are feeling; when you can muster the energy, start to make a list of things you are grateful for, this helps me so much when I am down.

    Remember how many of us out here, people you have never even met, care about you!

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