Eeeek! My first blog challenge and I’ll admit that I’m a little nervous. I’ve not written anything spontaneously for… however long so I’m really not sure how this will work out.
After signing up to the challenge, WordPress will send me an email with the prompt of the day, so all my answers will just flow however they want, there’s no plan or anything.
The prompt for Day 1 is…
What Advice Would You Give To Your Teenage Self?
I’ve always wanted to write a letter to my teenage self but I was never sure which age to aim for, 13 or maybe 18? My heart is saying 14 but, I don’t know, I think there’s too much that still hurts from that time, but then again, I would have given anything for advice or even a friend during that time.
Here goes nothing…
To My 14 Year Old Self
It’s weird sitting here now, typing this, Ami. You’re at the lowest that you thought you could ever be, and although I can’t promise things will get better straight away for you, just know sometimes in life things tend to get worse before they get better, unfortunately.
You think everything is your fault. It’s not, okay? You’re being manipulated, brainwashed and I wish with every bone in my body that I could have done something to prevent what was going to happen, but I’m sorry, I can’t.
One thing I can promise you is that one day, you’ll be free from him. You’ll be free from it all, the abuse, the neglect, the constant fear, everything. You will be safe.
Both you and Millie will be safe, although at different times but please don’t feel guilty for doing what you had to do. If you had stayed there, then I doubt you’d be writing this at almost 27. You did the right thing in pushing for help, you will be free from it all, I promise.
Life won’t always play out the way you had hoped. Life does get very scary and shitty at times In the future. But in those moments of happiness and feeling content, you’ll thrive and blossom, you’ll get the backbone you’ve always yearned for.
All my love,
Ami (Your almost 27 year old self)
What advice would you give to your teenage self?
